I Should be Ashamed

The weather outside is perfect. It is 80 degrees, not a cloud in the sky, so why oh why am I not singing? I'm in a melancholy mood today. I think it's because I am finally coming to accept the fact that my marriage is over and that I live alone and probably will for a very long time. I have had a really difficult time accepting the fact that I am single at 52. I never would have dreamed it. I thought Shane and I would be married forever.

I keep telling myself that I am far from the only person who has had to go through this sort of thing, and how lucky I am to have my health, a comfortable home, food to eat, I want for nothing, but some days are better than others. I need to go outside and stay there for a while. Maybe the sunshine will bring me out of my funk.