But I must go on, and since I have to go on, I have decided that I might as well spend the rest of my life at least trying to be happy. But I don't really know what happiness is anymore. I have changed. I will never be that carefree, smart mouthed, know it all I used to be. I have been humbled. Now it's time to get down to the real me, to find out who I am, and to see if there is a way that I can do good for others instead of always concentrating on myself and my self pity.
I am feeling so good about this decision, but change is hard. Wish me luck, pray for me. I have got to keep thinking that God has more in store for me than a life of loneliness and misery.